Playing My First Original Song in Ceremony: A Breakthrough Moment
Today marked a monumental step in my journey as a musician: I played my first original song in front of an audience during a psychedelic ceremony. It wasn’t just about sharing music – it was about being received, for the first time, not as an interpreter of someone else’s songs, but as the creator of my own music. It was a breakthrough moment that felt like a significant shift, not only in my musical expression but also in my confidence as an artist.
For the past two years, I’ve been "pregnant" with this song. It first came to me two years ago, during an improvisation. I wasn’t expecting anything special – just playing around with my guitar when, out of nowhere, the melody and a part of the lyrics were suddenly there. It was as if they appeared out of thin air. I felt enthusiastic about it for a couple of weeks, playing it in my own space, but then, self-doubt crept in. I started questioning the song – "Is it any good? It’s not very elaborate. Kinda cheesy even… " – and so I dropped it.
A whole year passed before I remembered it again. One day, the chorus appeared, and I knew the song was complete. It was born, fully formed. Yet, even though the song was ready, I still wasn’t. It took me another year to gather the courage to play it in front of others. Until today.
The Moment I Shared My Song
Today, in a ceremony with 35 people, I felt a shift. For the first time, I felt fully embodied in my musical essence – completely connected to my power as a musician. There had been moments before when I thought about sharing the song, but something always held me back. The timing never felt right, or perhaps it was my lingering self-doubt.
But today, something was different. I was free from any expectations about how people would react. I didn’t worry about whether the song matched the energy of the room. Instead, I trusted my intuition – now was the moment. I didn’t play it for praise or approval; I played it for myself. I was sharing a part of myself, offering my energy to the room, and not concerned with the outcome.
And it felt amazing.
The moment I started singing, I felt fully in my element. I wasn’t thinking about how my voice sounded or whether the chords were perfect. I was purely connected to the energy of the music, and that’s when I realized how powerful it is to play from this place of authenticity. I wasn’t performing; I was expressing.
THE ALCHEMY OF MUSIC
I played my song not for approval or praise, but simply to share a part of myself – and that made all the difference.
The Feedback I Received
After the song ended, the feedback I received was heartwarming. One person said, “I feel like you wrote this song just for me,” while another asked, “Why did you wait two years to share this?”
The truth is, I needed those two years to grow. It took me that long to build enough confidence in myself and my music to believe that what I create is valid. That my music is an act of service, not just something for my own enjoyment. Today, when I played the song, I knew it came from deep within me, from my inner world. And that’s why it resonated so strongly.
The Power of Self-Belief in Music
I’ve come to realize that what truly makes our music shine isn’t necessarily how well we play or how perfect the song is. It’s when we deeply trust in our essence and our innate self-worth as creators. When we believe in what we’re sharing, the energy flows through us, and the music serves as a vessel for something greater.
When self-doubt or worry about how our music might be received gets in the way, we lose that connection. But when we let go of those fears and trust in our authentic expression, something magical happens. Today, I was fully connected, and that connection made the experience a blessing.
THE ALCHEMY OF MUSIC
What truly makes our music shine is trusting in our essence and innate self-worth as creators
What I Learned From This Experience
This breakthrough moment wasn’t just about playing my first original song. It was about embracing my own creative power and trusting that what I have to share is valuable, regardless of how it’s received. It took me two years to gain the confidence to share this song, but today I realized that the timing was perfect. I wasn’t ready before because I hadn’t yet come to terms with the fact that my music matters, simply because it’s an expression of me.
Looking back, the journey with this song mirrors my own inner growth. At first, I was enthusiastic but unsure. Then came doubt, which caused me to abandon it. But once I allowed myself to trust my creative flow and embrace my own worth, the song blossomed into something I could share with the world.
If I’ve learned anything from this experience, it’s that music is more than just sound. It’s a form of connection – between ourselves, the people listening, and something greater than all of us. And when we play from a place of authenticity and trust, that connection becomes undeniable.
Today, I played from my heart. And it was one of the most liberating experiences of my life.
Final Thoughts
If you’re a musician or creative, remember that the timing of your journey is unique to you. Sometimes we hold back because we’re not quite ready to share our art. And that’s okay. The most important thing is to trust in your process and know that, when the time is right, your music will shine. It’s not about perfection; it’s about connection – to yourself and to those who are meant to hear it.
For me, today was that moment. And I’m grateful for the breakthrough, the trust, and the ability to finally share a song that came from the depths of my soul.
P.S. Join the Online Singing Circle
If you’re on a journey of self-expression through music, I invite you to join my monthly Online Singing Circle. In this 90-minute session, we’ll sing medicine songs, explore our voices, and tap into our inner creativity in a safe and nurturing space. Whether you're just starting to embrace your voice or have been singing for years, this circle offers a chance to connect with your voice on a deeper level – without the pressure of an audience.
It’s the perfect opportunity to build confidence, trust your musical intuition, and share the joy of singing in a supportive environment. Let’s come together to explore the beauty of music and expression.